Happy and full of hope - 2dp5dt

This whole process has been way better this time around, despite the slight dramas before it all started. They were worth it. I feel happy and full of hope. Last time around I already felt this did not work. And now I am trying to believe it actually will happen.

Our retrieval was 9 (6 mature) as opposed to 14 (8 mature) the last time. I was a little sad about it but reminded myself it's quality over quantity. We had 4 fertilize this time as opposed to last time we had 6. But we still in the end we had 3 like last time. They also defrosted more vials of our sperm (3 as opposed to 1 the last time). Transferred two good quality full blasts (as opposed to the average blast and morula last time) on day 5 and the last one made it to freeze yesterday. I could not be happier with any of this. Just way better than last time.

And my plan worked! I posted this after our last cycle about our embryologist. We didn't really like him last time but I think it helped that this time around, we actually knew everything he was talking about. And Tuesday we were chatting with him like we were old friends. Him and us chatting about Cross-Fit. I guess easier to do when he is delivering good news.

And the valium before the transfer. It's so fun that valium. Needless to say once it wore off, I took a nice nap. I went to my last acupuncture that evening and my acupuncturist basically said, "Just call me when you get your beta back."

Last two days spent time resting, planning for our upcoming spring road trip (more on that later), reading mags, tv, etc. My sister came yesterday and brought food and cooked for us. It was nice to spend time with her too.

All I can say is I am so happy. Last time I was already so defeated at this point. But right now, I am so positive. I just hope I can remain this way through next week.

Oh please let this be the cycle! Let this be a long, viable pregnancy. With increasing betas, ultrasounds and heartbeats and a baby(ies) in the end.