Sunday, December 11, 2011

A Birthday Wish

The birthday weekend has been fun. We went to a party on Friday night. Saturday we had Christmas brunch with my family and it was filled with lots of Christmas and Birthday presents for both J and I! Then last night was our Friends Thanksgiving party, equipped with an excellent turkey and fixings, plenty of booze and the yummiest of birthday cakes for us.  I was pretty tipsy (ok drunk) and cried a little when I got home.  Happy tears for how lucky I am to have such a wonderful life filled with the love of many people and maybe a sad tear or two for what I want that I can't have. At least right now.

Today has been great. Out for crepes for the birthday breakfast, a lovely nap, and just a pizza on the way and snuggling with my hub. Exactly what I wanted today. Everyone should do what they want on their birthday. Unfortunately there was no candle in my cake last night but J promised me today I would have dessert of sorts, with one candle, with one wish that I hope to come true very soon.

Thursday, December 8, 2011


My First Thought Vomit Thursday. Here goes:
  • I weighed myself on yesterday since going to the gyne a week ago and the good news is I was down 4 lbs. Which is great. I have been good about writing what I am eating down and still working out. I think maybe 2 lbs of that was bloating pre period weight anyway last week but I will take what I can get. Soo hooray and still motivated.
  • I have been reading many posts about the lack of Christmas cheer in many of us and I am right there with you. It is more of an up and down for me. I am sad we have no baby. But then I think I have a great life with so many good things I should just be thankful for that. Just feeling defeated this year, no real accomplishments to make note of and ready for just a fresh start in a new year.  And so damn emotional. I am teary eyed listening to Christmas carols. I don't know what my problem is with the tears. I do however have no problem belting out Last Christmas by WHAM (best version ever) of course. 
  • We'll be in Denmark this year for Christmas which I do love, because it is like that picture perfect Christmas postcard. A small band of Santa's playing music in the square, a little market in the mornings selling different beers,  cheese truck and Christmas decorations. Small shops, drinking glogg. I am hoping to find my cheer there. We did get ourselves to put up a mini tree, some lights inside our condo and a wreath so it is kind of around us but even shopping, I am more annoyed than cheery. I am happy to say however I will be finished shopping tomorrow.  We are doing breakfast with Santa with my family on Saturday to give our nephews their gifts. 
  • And it's my birthday weekend. The big 36 on Sunday.  And I am going to make it a happy day. My husband and I are going to have a pretty low key day (his birthday is actually Monday). Maybe a little pizza (my fav food), maybe a trip downtown to see the Christmas lights, hit the German market, hmmmm.
  •  I got my hair highlighted yesterday and I look like pop star.  HATE IT. Needless to say it is getting fixed at 11 today. 
  • Also yesterday I went all the way to the gym, got pissed there was no parking and went home. No parking at the gym or near the gym for three blocks! I drove around for 10 minutes then said screw it, I was going to miss my class. There is just too much going on there at the time I go to spin, tons of kid classes so there are moms and kids and strollers everywhere and if I do not leave early enough, the annoyance of lack of parking due to all the mini-vans makes me insane. I love the irony of how I wish I was one of those moms in my way.
  • I just wish I could stop feeling guilty for having the blues. There are tons of people in this world who have nothing and  have so many things to be thankful for. It's just a roller coaster this month. 
  • Thanks for listening to me rant out there.

Monday, December 5, 2011

A Major Award

And my first blog award! Had to make the reference from the movie The Christmas Story. 

A shout out and thanks to both Rebecca at Pink Lipgloss & Prenatals and Megan at This Space For Rent for giving me this award. Both lovelies are in the midst of their 2WW and I hoping and wishing they get the best Christmas presents ever, lil ones growing in their bellies.

So now the rules of the award:
1. Thank the person who gave you the award! (check)
2. List 7 things people may not know about you. (below)
3. Pass the award to 15 other bloggers and notify them as well. (The hard part is trying to pick other bloggers who have not been chosen already. If you have received the award from someone else, just ignore my nomination.)

Things about me:

1) My name is Amanda. Joy is my middle name because my birthday is near Christmas (in one week to be exact). I kind of wanted to be anonymous on this blog, kind of not. But now that I know I am part of such a great community, I think you should know my name. 
2) When thinking about the name for my blog, I kept thinking of the movie "The Outsiders" where Matt Dillon is preparing for the fight with the Socis and says "We gotta do it for Johnny". It kept going through my mind.  So were doing all this bruhaha for a babe. 
3) I have lived a life of "I Never Thought I" (I'm sure we all have, if you think about it). I never thought I would have lived alone (8 years), travel outside the US, have gotten married after 30, met my husband on the internet, that he would be foreign and that I would ever have an issue having children, let alone not have one by my age.  There are plenty of other things I could add but we would be here awhile. Oh life, you're so funny and interesting. 
4) I was the first President of my grammar school in 8th grade. Politics is one of my least favorite things to talk about. 
5) My dream would be to own a sandwich shop. Just a small one in a corporate setting, open for breakfast and lunch only M-F.  I love to cook and whenever I make a new sandwich or bake something I like, I always tell my husband it would be included in the sandwich shop. 
6) The most stressful moment of my life (thus far) was the Monday before my wedding. You would think because of the standard stuff, am I going to get everything done, is my dress going to look ok, will the DJ show up, is it going to rain. Oh no. I was worried that the Icelandic volcano would not stop erupting so that the air space would open for my husband's family to fly in for the wedding. (Don't worry, they all made it in by Wednesday evening, in time for the rehearsal dinner Thursday)
7) I have two tattoos, a dolphin on my thigh I got when I was 18 (foolish me) and the Chinese symbol for Happiness in my ankle I got when I was 25. 

I am passing this award on to the following bloggers:

1) Cattiz @ Colours of Cattiz
2) Angie @ Random Thoughts from Angie
3) Mrs BubbaT @ A Journey Not for the Lighthearted
4) justagirl-Krista @ My Infertility Road
5) Emily @ A Blanket 2 Keep
6) Rebecca @ Trying Not to Scream
7) Kayla @ Life is Simple, It's just not Easy
8) Beckie @ Beckie's Infertility Journey
9) NV @ Baby NV
10) Lil Dreamer @ Bean Dreams
11) Mag @ Witty Infertility
12) Nic @ Trying for a Baby
13) Lovely lady @ Many Many Moons
14) Michelle @ The Yount Happenings
15) SLESE1014 @ Fertility Frustration