Sunday, July 15, 2012

What a Difference a Year Makes

I'm back. Well at least to my blog. I've been good at keeping updated on what is going on with most of you, but I think I am ready to blog again.

One of my biggest things about staying away from blogging is there was a lot of heartbreak going on out there and it really just tears me up. It was hard for me to be blogging about my pregnancy (even though this is my blog, space etc.) knowing there was so much hurting going on. I know that it's not a perfect world and there will continue to be hurt but I hope as well, there are many more rainbows and good things that include everything baby for all of you still hoping and waiting.

A year ago today, I started this blog. It is so funny to read now what my mind frame was. My husband was getting ready to have his TESE in one week and I was getting my schedule ready for my first IVF in August. It was not successful and we took a nice long break to enjoy the fall, the holidays and travel. It seems like forever ago. And I cannot believe that here I am now 22 weeks pregnant after our successful second round in February. And I would do it all again if I had to. I have been enjoying it and just now in preparing mode.  I think the weirdest thing is even when you do get pregnant there is always something to worry about. First, just getting pregnant - shots, ultrasounds, transfers, etc. but now it is staying pregnant and doing everything in your power to do what is best for your baby. And I know once this baby arrives, it brings a whole other set of worries that pretty much never stops.

We recently put our condo on the market. My hope is that it sells before this baby arrives. We'll find a place to live whether we buy a house, rent or just camp somewhere (aka my parents house) for awhile. But I want a whole new start in whole new place with this baby. And even if it doesn't sell, I know we will be fine with this baby here but my preference is to get out. I'm just over living here. Neighbors, noise. We are just ready to have our own space and not share walls.

We are doing well otherwise. Our baby is doing great. All of our tests have been fine. The baby did not cooperate at our 20 week ultrasound (would not turn over) so we went back this week to get the pictures of the heart they needed. And in two weeks I get my glucose test. I'll be glad when that is over.

We are not finding out the gender and we went yesterday to register. Let me tell ya, it is hard to find neutral things! We are putting off any crib/bedding/furniture purchases until we know where we are living and those things may be purchased after the baby comes. My shower is not until Sept. which gives me plenty of time to change my mind 50 times about what I want.

So that's a little update in a nutshell. I haven't not taken a single belly pic. I probably should get on that.

Hope everyone is well! I'll be back to regularly scheduled blogging.